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I have been trying to express this recently, and it has been hard for me to try to vocalize, so I thought I might have a go at writing it.
He had his demons, and I had mine. They didn’t play well together.
He is not a bad person, and I could never hate him. But the space that he had filled in my life, has been replaced with the longing to regain what I once was. And I am walking the path to finding my way back to my old self.
Some days I still get angry, because I have seemingly lost the lightness of my heart, the easy-going spirit that I once had. Many days I struggle with self-doubt and self-consciousness that was once not there. The power of his hasty words were the cause, and some days they still reverberate through my mind.
Some days I still struggle with my worth and confidence. What infuriates me, I suppose, is the fact that there was a time and a place, where that worry was not at the forefront of my mind, and now it is.
Our demons didn’t play well together, and I suppose we were both affected in the long run. And now, it’s a matter of picking up pieces and rebuilding ourselves into better versions of what we once were. And perhaps that process will just take time.
He is not a bad person, and I could never hate him. But the space that he had filled in my life, has been replaced with the longing to regain what I once was. And I am walking the path to finding my way back to my old self.
Some days I still get angry, because I have seemingly lost the lightness of my heart, the easy-going spirit that I once had. Many days I struggle with self-doubt and self-consciousness that was once not there. The power of his hasty words were the cause, and some days they still reverberate through my mind.
Some days I still struggle with my worth and confidence. What infuriates me, I suppose, is the fact that there was a time and a place, where that worry was not at the forefront of my mind, and now it is.
Our demons didn’t play well together, and I suppose we were both affected in the long run. And now, it’s a matter of picking up pieces and rebuilding ourselves into better versions of what we once were. And perhaps that process will just take time.
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